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I basically JUST got done finishing my art history 2 exam... lets just say I'm glad there will be four other exams to help it all balance out. I do incredibly well in my intro to visual arts class infact I tutor someone in that class... alot of the same material overlaps... and so I thought I'd do well... yeah...no. There is always next time. I studied before the exam and ralized I had not really retained much... I had intended on studying last night annnd well I didn't. I'm glad I didn't because I wasn't remembering anythign and it is more important that I worked on my other school work. last night I went to the burger king/gas station with Scott. Scott and I were buddies before he left for the mission and now we're still friends. It was great to just sit and talked about what ever with him and not worry about the people around me. Although the topics are typically the same it was still nice. We ended up staying for 4-ish hours. My roommates are pretty great! We had FHE this past Monday and did little skit things which was a little silly and embarassing, but I got over it. I am actually a FHE "mother" (group leader) but if you don't know I am more on the quiet side. I really don't like competeing to be heard over a group of mostly loud extra-veerts. I wish I could upload pictures but I can't find the file. You can always check the facebook... but really if we're not facebook friends then why aren't we? If the answer is you don't have a facebook well then you should just get one. My life is updated more often on there. facebook doesn't include all the stuff I type in with the pics, well, that is if you read it.
Umm... other than art history 2 my classes are going pretty well. I recently dropped my architecture class. I just don't need it for my major. After taking this class I know I couldn't be an architect, and I am tired of people trying to pedal it on me just because I can do it. If I'm going to force myself into 4+ years of school I'm going to need to really like or love what I'm doing.

I haven't been able to take an art class since high school and I am being left behind in the dust. I drew some stuff in my sketch book.

Kid with a boom box. Reminds me of someone I know. ^

I'm not sure where this was going and some orange blead through from another piece.^

in my intro to vis arts class they were talking about looking into and better undertanding art from your culture... which I don't fully understand... here's a cool tiger things that in seen often in Mexican folk art.^

I know the legs are short and other stuff.. but I don't know how ot improve and I don't like having to erase^

I hate this one... i like the spray can part.^

My grad plan

My old lady laptop has had problems lately... so Freckles in my main laptop right now.
It is another one of those non-stop snow days. It is cold out side but I get to see really pretty snow flakes gather on my coat and slowly melt away as I cut through campus buildings to get around.


I'm in an architecture class... even though I have recently decided the architecture program isn't worth a degree in architecture.... I find myself not dropping it.

My professor recently gave us the assignment to look through our catalog year and plan out our graduation plans.

I've learned that above all I mostly enjoy my art history classes (I have yet to take any type of drawing or painting class). Through my own experiences in helping people out in my classes I've realized that I shouldn't ignore wanting to have a degree in art education. Yeah... I'll make no money and the kids could be punks... but you never know. I find great joy in helpings others to learn.

I went to my administrator who sent me up stairs and then into a whole different building. After changing my major around twice and switching my generals to foundation courses ... I am now pursuing a degree in Art Education. It is a composite degree so I don't have to worry about a minor. I am currently taking 17.5 credits and it is not killing me so as I made my grad plan I kept in mind a 14-18 credit limit in mind. My track for school is winter/spring. I go to school from January til July. Then I have that next half of the year to earn money and have fun. I'll be taking classes up until Winter 2013 and completing my student teaching in spring of 2013 annnnd I'll probably throw in another religion credit so I can have financial aid, if I need it then.

It is kind of frustrating because many people my age only have about a year left, and I had always imagined I'd have more school behind me by now...and also that I'd be preparing to send in my mission papers. With all my set backs and not really wanting to be in school ...I am behind. I guess plans are there to be broken and reworked.

I don't know how successful I'll be at teaching art.
Art is something I've come to love and enjoy. I feel like you can learn anything from looking at art: a piece of a biography, our history, the emotions of others, how out of the box some people are, color schemes, religion, false interpretations of doctrine ( moses with horns), you can understand an artist's work ethic by what they do to their piece and their mastery of the medium, you can learn an artists point of view on a certain time or place or situation, it can take you to places you could never think up yourself, an art piece can strike an empathetic view in hardship..and it goes my list goes on.
An image is more memorable to me than a bunch of words. An image makes me wonder and gives me the initiative to figure out how, why, and when. I hope that I will be able to bring the joy of art to others through completing my degree and teaching others.

So ... here's to making plans and hoping I'll be able to complete school around 2013!

Rexburg.

I'm back in Rexburg.
I've been accepted and I've recently made the discovery that I'm totally going to do art education. It's something I've tried to avoid doing... I let discouragment get the besat of me...but after having experiences that lead me to believe I'd be a good art teacher...well I'm going to go for it. I love helping others learn.

I've been meeting lots of people, my roommates are great, and I have been realllllly busy with my 17.5 credit load. I also have two callings in my ward they are awesome and I'm thrilled to serve.



Glad to know I'm getting closer to an education.

That is all.

The Holidays in Blue Ridge, TX

A couple of weeks ago would be when the holidays all began...

It started with the sip from a drinking fountain at church and ever since then I have been sick... well okay I'm on the up swing now...but still.

Since a couple of weeks ago it hit me that Christmas was coming.

The dogs at work starting checking in large numbers. The gift list grew. Shifts at work I would never want...became mine. The pets hotel manager and store manager were fired. I've been having issues with my financial aid for school...I'm still not completely certain how that's going to work out. I still haven't got my contract for my apartment for school. problems with Social Security office... but I'm not disabled?... that is correct....family issues...who doesn't have those! So many things getting into the way of going back to school, preparing and teaching my Sunday school class, and going to work. My problems are not even that big. Yet I'm well... having a hard time.

There were a LOT of dogs and cats at work (156). I work over night. I worked Christmas Eve 6pm-6am and again Christmas night 9pm-6am...and Satuurday night 9pm-6am. As much as I want to go to sleep typically when I work over night on Saturdays...I cannot. If I fell alseep I'd miss church and teaching my class with Carmen.

Christmas morning was great though! Carmen's family and I gathered around and opened our presents. Everyone was happy and I got some stuff I wanted. I didn't really know what I wanted this year.... but people AND SANTA guessed right :). a label maker, 4 packs of Monster energy drinks, a utility knife, meteos for my DSi...just to name a few. Everyone liked/has liked so far the gifts I have given them!

I get discouraged easily. With the way my life is here back in Texas it really makes me dread goig back to Idaho. I really want to attend a university... I got in to this one. With luck I may be able to/have the means to transfer to some place else.




me and the Taylors! ^^^

Carmen's mom is graet at decorating!!! ^

Holiday pups ^
My mommy and I out on the town getting haircuts ^

Part of my primary class

21

yep. I'm 21.

sketch book & some old photos

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I've been really busy with work. I haven't had a lot of time for art really.
I have also been really busy getting my stuff in line to start school by next year.

At church and with my family they've been talking to me a lot about everything I need to do and accomplish. To think about it all... it's really stressful. I've decided that my life time-table isn't the same as the norm. The church places a lot of importance on the family, helping your family, staying close with your family, creating your own family as well... Me? That is really funny.
I really want to finish school, serve a full time mission, serve with the peace corps helping people learn about being self sufficient with the use of agriculture or helping others in the community out reach programs, I'd like to learn to play a new instrument.
Really all of those things above could be done at any time in my life. The possibility gets smaller and smaller as the years go by. I'd like to say I'll stick to those things... but I most probably won't.

It seems like lots of people have so many dreams... and in time they get compromised because they're afraid of being alone, they doubt themselves, or they become disappointed and give up.

One of my friends once said ' live with low expectations and you'll be surprised with your outcomes'

Not to sound cynical but... I think it actually pretty good advice. When you're a quiet and avoid conflict a lot you get stepped on a lot. I think the best I can do is just be happy, kind, work hard, and keep in mind in general what I want to do with my life. When I just keep my expectations to the minimum, I get plesantly suprised more often (:

Halloweeeen 2009

Me and Alex after the party^

I went with Alex and these kids went with us to. They're from McKinney... I hardly remember them. I guess that is how it goes.

Heather, the little Devil!

Ethan, Bri, Carmen, and Heather while Jared fails at scaring them.

Carmie the Zombie

Larry Taylor one of the best men you'll ever meet.

Carmen and her nephew Ethan

Me and Carmen with our pumpkins

A really awesome house!
I didn't wake up til about 4pm on halloween because of the shift I worked the night before.
When I got up we carved pumpkins. Every one made their own designs. After wasting a lot of time trying to decide I made a rooster. Afterwords, got ready to go trick or treating.

Carmen's mom, Carmen, Jared (Carmen's brother) and his family, and I all went out to Carmen's old neighborhood and went with them to houses.
Eventually Carmen had to go off to work, and I met up with my friend who I've known since middle school. Alex Tromanovich was the monopoly guy.
I got my costume the morning before from walmart. The 'tatterd witch costume'. I felt like the dress was really short of I added black tights and biker shorts. I was going to wear nicer shoes but my tennis shoes were way more comfortable...and because it was cold outside I wore a cape. From living in Idaho I've bcome very use to being more coverd up...and so I felt exposed...which of course I was a pretty conservative lady compaired to what I saw for the night.
The shirt I borrowed after we got back to Alex's house was longer than my witchy dress. I can't fully understand why all the girl costumes were so slutty.
We went to some party that consisted of seniors from mckinny high and mckinney north until about the class of 06.
As you may know how those things go... I didn't really feel I could take any good pictures that I would want to post online. Of course I don't drink either so I was just hanging back watching people act ... well not differently than they normally would. It was still neat to see everyone. Later on we stopped to get some taco bell and I stayed at Alex's with friends til Carmen got off work at 6am.
I went up to the petsmart that we both work at. I 'got' to show some people my costume.
My night was actually more eventful than this...but I guess that is all I feel like sharing.

I also recently visisted my nephew, my brother Zeniff, and his wife Tiffany to celebrate. It was my nephew Skyler's birthday.