Life after the summer and the road home

Packing up my stuff from my ritz room at Red Fishy was a weird feeling.
I knew it was right and my beloved roomie the great Faith Peters had already gone and so had a majority of the crew.
The weather was getting colder out
and we’d already had our end of the season dinner.

Lindsey and I headed out to Boise and I stayed my brother his wifey and their new baby Katelyn!
It was stressful to get everything arranged for buying a car and taking my drivers test.
What is a 22 year old doing with out a driver’s license you ask… well… it’s a long story but mainly has to do with helping pay bills while still at home and not having a car while in college.
everything seemed to work out I now own my first car, first six months of drivers insurance, first driers license, first GPS, and it all lead to my first road trip.
My trip home to Texas.
I visited friend up at BSU.
I got to go to Caldwell, ID to see my friend Danielle who worked with me at Red Fishy and got to go to her birthday party!!!
The drive home wasn’t as bad as I thought. I ran into a ton of construction! You know where you have to wait for a car with a blinking light to get you across the one lane road??!? Yeah five times and I was the pilot car four of the times :/ .
I Spent my first night in Colorado and by the second night I was home at the Taylors!!!

Since Red Fish I’ve become accustom to not seeing pretty mountains out my window every day and not having an employee cook but Carmen’s mom cooks a lot for good food too .

The Holidays in Blue Ridge, TX

A couple of weeks ago would be when the holidays all began...

It started with the sip from a drinking fountain at church and ever since then I have been sick... well okay I'm on the up swing now...but still.

Since a couple of weeks ago it hit me that Christmas was coming.

The dogs at work starting checking in large numbers. The gift list grew. Shifts at work I would never want...became mine. The pets hotel manager and store manager were fired. I've been having issues with my financial aid for school...I'm still not completely certain how that's going to work out. I still haven't got my contract for my apartment for school. problems with Social Security office... but I'm not disabled?... that is correct....family issues...who doesn't have those! So many things getting into the way of going back to school, preparing and teaching my Sunday school class, and going to work. My problems are not even that big. Yet I'm well... having a hard time.

There were a LOT of dogs and cats at work (156). I work over night. I worked Christmas Eve 6pm-6am and again Christmas night 9pm-6am...and Satuurday night 9pm-6am. As much as I want to go to sleep typically when I work over night on Saturdays...I cannot. If I fell alseep I'd miss church and teaching my class with Carmen.

Christmas morning was great though! Carmen's family and I gathered around and opened our presents. Everyone was happy and I got some stuff I wanted. I didn't really know what I wanted this year.... but people AND SANTA guessed right :). a label maker, 4 packs of Monster energy drinks, a utility knife, meteos for my DSi...just to name a few. Everyone liked/has liked so far the gifts I have given them!

I get discouraged easily. With the way my life is here back in Texas it really makes me dread goig back to Idaho. I really want to attend a university... I got in to this one. With luck I may be able to/have the means to transfer to some place else.




me and the Taylors! ^^^

Carmen's mom is graet at decorating!!! ^

Holiday pups ^
My mommy and I out on the town getting haircuts ^

Part of my primary class

sketch book & some old photos

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I've been really busy with work. I haven't had a lot of time for art really.
I have also been really busy getting my stuff in line to start school by next year.

At church and with my family they've been talking to me a lot about everything I need to do and accomplish. To think about it all... it's really stressful. I've decided that my life time-table isn't the same as the norm. The church places a lot of importance on the family, helping your family, staying close with your family, creating your own family as well... Me? That is really funny.
I really want to finish school, serve a full time mission, serve with the peace corps helping people learn about being self sufficient with the use of agriculture or helping others in the community out reach programs, I'd like to learn to play a new instrument.
Really all of those things above could be done at any time in my life. The possibility gets smaller and smaller as the years go by. I'd like to say I'll stick to those things... but I most probably won't.

It seems like lots of people have so many dreams... and in time they get compromised because they're afraid of being alone, they doubt themselves, or they become disappointed and give up.

One of my friends once said ' live with low expectations and you'll be surprised with your outcomes'

Not to sound cynical but... I think it actually pretty good advice. When you're a quiet and avoid conflict a lot you get stepped on a lot. I think the best I can do is just be happy, kind, work hard, and keep in mind in general what I want to do with my life. When I just keep my expectations to the minimum, I get plesantly suprised more often (:

Halloweeeen 2009

Me and Alex after the party^

I went with Alex and these kids went with us to. They're from McKinney... I hardly remember them. I guess that is how it goes.

Heather, the little Devil!

Ethan, Bri, Carmen, and Heather while Jared fails at scaring them.

Carmie the Zombie

Larry Taylor one of the best men you'll ever meet.

Carmen and her nephew Ethan

Me and Carmen with our pumpkins

A really awesome house!
I didn't wake up til about 4pm on halloween because of the shift I worked the night before.
When I got up we carved pumpkins. Every one made their own designs. After wasting a lot of time trying to decide I made a rooster. Afterwords, got ready to go trick or treating.

Carmen's mom, Carmen, Jared (Carmen's brother) and his family, and I all went out to Carmen's old neighborhood and went with them to houses.
Eventually Carmen had to go off to work, and I met up with my friend who I've known since middle school. Alex Tromanovich was the monopoly guy.
I got my costume the morning before from walmart. The 'tatterd witch costume'. I felt like the dress was really short of I added black tights and biker shorts. I was going to wear nicer shoes but my tennis shoes were way more comfortable...and because it was cold outside I wore a cape. From living in Idaho I've bcome very use to being more coverd up...and so I felt exposed...which of course I was a pretty conservative lady compaired to what I saw for the night.
The shirt I borrowed after we got back to Alex's house was longer than my witchy dress. I can't fully understand why all the girl costumes were so slutty.
We went to some party that consisted of seniors from mckinny high and mckinney north until about the class of 06.
As you may know how those things go... I didn't really feel I could take any good pictures that I would want to post online. Of course I don't drink either so I was just hanging back watching people act ... well not differently than they normally would. It was still neat to see everyone. Later on we stopped to get some taco bell and I stayed at Alex's with friends til Carmen got off work at 6am.
I went up to the petsmart that we both work at. I 'got' to show some people my costume.
My night was actually more eventful than this...but I guess that is all I feel like sharing.

I also recently visisted my nephew, my brother Zeniff, and his wife Tiffany to celebrate. It was my nephew Skyler's birthday.

new pics.

I just thought I'd add this image. I saw it on Juxtapoz.com. Yes, it's sad that this little snail is now more likely to get eaten because he stands out so much... but he still looks pretty dang rad.




















I don't take my cmera around with me all too often but here's some pics.These are from a week or two...or three ago... It is sort of a typical week in image form. Animals, working, walking, Carmen, and my nephew although I prolly won't see him for a while. Usually when I want to take my camera with me to an outing my camera doesn't have charged batteries and well... I don't really care a whole lot about caring around stuff when I'm out.