past sketch book entres

I've been really busy and distracted with everything going on.
I'm makng some changes though and I'm hoping for the best....
here's some of the lame sketches you've missed out on.

3-30-09

I never knew why others had left or why they said they couldn't stick through.... only to realize I'm Not a fit either. I guess they were right.
I guess I can't be myself at the right times, and I'm myself at the wrong times ....
I tried to hold onto what I wanted but I can't. It's slipping away and there's not much else I can do but start over again.
I don't understand and I can't fit the mold to make things flow right.
It's scarey to do things on your own and to ignor what others say... but that's part of not being a child anymore and that is part of being your own person...

Get away from what is holding you back and move on to accomplish what you want. Don't forget, but remember what it is you had and be glad it came and that you were able to enjoy it.

If you love something and you let it go and it's real then the chance for that love again will be there again.
If you want something but it won't work then step away and recollect yourself and come back for another try on another day.




I'm trying again with new hopes and dreams...
It's hard to go_some may not understand, some may not even care, and some may make you not want to even think of leaving...
It's sad to say good bye but for now...

I am.

Guitars unplugged

some paintings

My work doesn't give me consistent hours...
So I've had some time to make a few pieces while I'm watching a movie or talking to someone.

did you know my roof is linking for over a year now?

apparently the guy who owns this house doesn't care that the roof is leaking.


SO while these pictures load...at a painstakingly slooow speed...I will make a poem dedicated to the leak in my roof :)


Across the slab chilled red floors
there's a brown puddle forming
and up above there's dimpled squares falling

There's a hole that keeps growing and a stain that keeps spreading
Steaming heat is building up and out from the furnace
There's a thought that is tingling to surface

This living room, so many things I recall.
That ever gr owning stain above could tell you so many stories
This living room, makes me wonder if it's good to be in the room at all.

Icy white snow piles upon this poor neglected house...
Perhaps the roof is rebelling
after all this part is part of the real building.







yeah for leaks going unfixed for a year and creating serious damage!!!
Booh for my internet being bad lately.

some times when I can't sleep...

I take pics of the outside that I'm typically not brave enough to endure.









Tonight I'm going for a jog. Peace out.

20 questions.

so they always do this 20 Q's thing on Juxtapoz...and I haven't really made anything presentable in a long time. I don't believe it would even matter because my hard drive is basically extremely full... so it'd be hard to post stuff.
So for the mean time. Here's the 20 questions from Juxtapoz (juxtapoz.com) filled out with my answers.

1.What's the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
trying to remember my dream while checking my text messages.

2.Something about yourself the average person wouldn't guess?
I'm a hopeless romantic who should be shot to be put out of her misery.

3.If you had one day left on Earth, what’s left to be discovered?
So much...but I think it'd be nice to climb a mountain, I never have.

4.What is your first art-making memory as a kid?
I loved 101 Dalmatians cartoon. I remember being at church and trying to recreate the characters I liked.

5.Do you need long periods of time alone, or are you energized by interaction?
I think time alone helps me make pieces that are more of what I want...social interaction can be really great, if it's the right kind of people.

6.Is being in the dark with the lights out frightening or comforting?
it really depends on the situation

7.What's the most non-art involved activity you continually find yourself enjoying?
watching nip tuck...it's a horribly crude show I'm trying to wean myself off of

8.Have you been to jail? If so, why? If not, why not?
never been to jail.

9.What kind of car do you drive?
the invisible kind, I'll prolly get one while I'm home.

10.What’s your biggest non-green inspired indulgence?
road trips, lots and lots of fun road trips.

11.What is the single most important thing you did to breakthrough as a career artist?
I don't have a career in art...

12.Best hustle you ever pulled?
I think selling an old art piece that I did on a whim... I thought it was lame...still bought, selling art can be considered a good hustle.

13.Are you ever bored?
I was all the time when I was a kid, but I don't ever have a boring day now.

14.What excites you?
interesting people and the idea of getting to know them & road trips.

15.2023 will look like . . . ?
more smoggy, crazy clothes, nicer cars, annnd possibly more sad people roaming the streets

16.If you could have a drink with one artist, living or dead, who would it be?
viggo mortensen kind of a modern day renaissance man.

17.Last passport stamp:
I've never needed a passport

18.Can’t stand:
wasted time.

19.Can't live without:
music, the ability to be creative how ever i want, my church, animals, the great outdoors, my friends, and my family.

20.Words to live by:

Be happy, try to progress in a good way,stay true to yourself, and to those that try to bring you down just think to yourself..'So what?' ... and all those obstacles will fade.