FHE blunders

So I am obviously an extra-veeeeert.


So I feel great once I have some sort of foundation.
In my Family home evening group I am a "mom" which is a really silly calling for me, for so many reasons it is ridiculous.
I have a lot of louder people in my group. I love to observe people and if I don't have much to say then I typically won't make shiz up.. unless I'm in a small group or in a one on one situation.

Typically when I make an effort in a group of loud extra-verts then I just get looked over. I'm completely okay with that until people have to point it out and try to point out character flaws. I mean who the heck do you think you are? Yeah... lame.
I feel like a lot of people so quickly just think.. oh yeah she is like this so.. that is just how it is and I don't care anymore.
I wish to be better and I am working on it.
Meh.

I taught one of my "sons" to kind of draw cartoons today. Although I don't know if it was really appreciated I really enjoy helping others to understand the things I know how to do.

It reminded me of a full circle moment I had with a primary class I taught while I was at home. Bare with me because this is probably a repeat story.
As a little kid I recall watching older people be able to so effortlessly draw an image_ I don't know if there was anything more that I wanted to be able to do.
Art wasn't really a natural talent for people... although my mommy would disagree... it just wasn't really. It is something that started as a desire. Doodling in Sunday school the cute puppies from 101 Dalmatians. Doodling in classes on the side of note book paper and hand outs. Those doodles gave me a jump start on understanding form. I eventually got to be in art electives through out grade school and art including doodles ( cartoons mainly) has become such a big part of my life that I have come to love. In not a lot of time I had invented my own cartoon characters and could effortlessly draw them.

It wasn't until I got a calling to teach CTR 7 with my best friend Carmen.
We often finished the lesson early and it was typically followed by hang man. One day I was drawing a dog with crayons on the back of an extra handout. One of the girls asked me how I did it. I drew it once explaining all the shapes it takes to make a dog. I Then helped guide her hand to make the dog, and then she did it by herself. In that small simple moment I had had a full circle moment. I just had a little girl not much unlike myself watch in awe as I drew a cartoon effortlessly and was able to teach her what started me off on making cartoons as well.

Hmm so I like this song and am not a huge fan of the images with it but still.. enjoy. Have gone from listening to Tech N9ne and Linkin Park to more of Death Cab and Meiko. I've just been ya know thinking about life well..people...persons...person...
either way.
I hope you enjoy them.



I've started this new thing where I find a song I like and then I learn to play it on an instrument and then make an art piece about it.
This is the song I picked. I can't really read music/ haven't made the effort to remember the lesson I had in elementary school about reading music
.. SO I've been trying to learn to play it but ear and guessing... a little pathetic perhaps...and yet I love it.
Here is the song.


I don't know what to think about school anymore.
I am just not feeling it.
I think I'm suppose to go but there is alot of things and blah blah issues with learning disability and all that jazz but it just isn't clicking...
Will I be here next semester?
I don't know.
If I am I know exactly how I would do it, and how I could manage my time, deal with people, and I've learned better studying habits... although the reality has struck me that perhaps it is too late.
I talked to me bishop about serving a mission this past Sunday. I'm not positive what will happen but it certainly would not hurt my life

Beside the point, I am a pretty decent person. I promise.

Oh and I don't look over what I've typed when I post it so just bare with me...