sundays are best

Today is Sunday.

I love Sundays.

Mostly because they give me time to reflect and to take time off from stress... however lately they've just been bringing on more confusion in my heart and in my head.

I tried to tell some people what's been going on in my head lately... but my thoughts just get shot down. What's the point of having my own beliefs and sharing them if no one will take them into consideration and not just throw them back at me?
CAn i... not just like someone...?
Is is not alright if i don't feel like watching a rated R movie.
Is it not okay is I think Obama and CLinton suck?
Is is not okay if I don't feel like matching my clothes?
IF a thought is in my head it isn't life or death if you hear it
....i promise you will live if i don't tell you.
I know what I want but it feels difficult to obtain.

Today my brother and I went to get my patriachal blessing. It was really interesting, and motivating. The thoughts that popped in my head were kind of annoying and I wished I could have that blessing with a empty mind and empty heart.

If something or someone isn't right then why does it have to plague my heart and or mind?

Why can't it just leave me alone?

I want to start everything over again.
I regret wasting so much time being confused.
I regret that I even now am wasting time.
I want to take everything back I've ever told any one.

Hey guess what I'm could be a freaking sweet teacher some day.
...and I could be a good example/// pretty crazy it doens't sound like me.

I look forward to developing into this amazing person I was promised to become if I just live worthily.

I have so much work to do. I'm not exactly sure where to start.