What have I been up to?
School.
Spending time with Carmen!
A little bit of work.
...more school.
I am currently taking online courses until second block starts and hopefully my little car Calvin can make it up to Idaho
I have been listening to Sufjan Stevens a lot lately. I find it regrettable to find out that he was making music when I was in middle school ... back in the day where I couldn't find anything to listen to. Little did I know Sufjan was alive and creating making music that is just the kind I like.
So I just have not really had time for art at all this, however, is an assignment.
Yeah I could have taken longer on it and I am sure there are lots of things wrong with it. I KNOW I can make something better... but I'll prolly post my future stuff. You can see if I prove myself later on.
I just get to a certain point and am like meh... that'll work. this is just my first art class and it is only available online.
Do not get my wrong I love art. I just don't get the time to make the kind I want.
It is hard because I have a million art piece ideas yet not time to really do it.
As for new art piece ideas...
Most ideas I get are fueled by something that I cannot let go of. As of late though I have been tired of feeling. So most thoughts, emotions, and moments that I use to hold onto for an idea.. I just throw out. So you can see lots non-emotion envoked art like lots of cartoon doodles on my belongings.
Okay.... so I am 22 and will be 23 this 2011 and I am a college freshman..not the most pathetic story... but just a bit discouraging when I already have a strong distaste for taking the time out for higher education.
I want to study art ed and agriculture... So I am quite slowly doing the college thing. What job market am I rushing to anyways? Will they even need art teachers by the time I graduate from college??!? What if I had to teach something else like ..math.. ::shudders::.
Carmen's mom comes in at night to see how I am. A recent conversation:
"how's it going rachie?"
"uhhh..hmmm..gooood."
"oh don't be so sad"
"do I look sad?"
"yes you do"
"oh"
I wanted to know what these studious-depression faces looked like so I would take a picture after each time she would come in they goes as follows:
PLese excuse the I rolled out of bed and have been wearing pjs all day look*
I tell myself:
just do it.. it will end eventually.
I'll reward you with fun an exciting summer and fall employement
or to live in a new place as soon an the school year is over.
I cold go travel or live in the mountains ...
just force yourself..come on rach.
Lucky for you the school year is from January til August!
Come on Rach.
Enough crazy monolouges.
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