21

yep. I'm 21.

sketch book & some old photos

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I've been really busy with work. I haven't had a lot of time for art really.
I have also been really busy getting my stuff in line to start school by next year.

At church and with my family they've been talking to me a lot about everything I need to do and accomplish. To think about it all... it's really stressful. I've decided that my life time-table isn't the same as the norm. The church places a lot of importance on the family, helping your family, staying close with your family, creating your own family as well... Me? That is really funny.
I really want to finish school, serve a full time mission, serve with the peace corps helping people learn about being self sufficient with the use of agriculture or helping others in the community out reach programs, I'd like to learn to play a new instrument.
Really all of those things above could be done at any time in my life. The possibility gets smaller and smaller as the years go by. I'd like to say I'll stick to those things... but I most probably won't.

It seems like lots of people have so many dreams... and in time they get compromised because they're afraid of being alone, they doubt themselves, or they become disappointed and give up.

One of my friends once said ' live with low expectations and you'll be surprised with your outcomes'

Not to sound cynical but... I think it actually pretty good advice. When you're a quiet and avoid conflict a lot you get stepped on a lot. I think the best I can do is just be happy, kind, work hard, and keep in mind in general what I want to do with my life. When I just keep my expectations to the minimum, I get plesantly suprised more often (:

Halloweeeen 2009

Me and Alex after the party^

I went with Alex and these kids went with us to. They're from McKinney... I hardly remember them. I guess that is how it goes.

Heather, the little Devil!

Ethan, Bri, Carmen, and Heather while Jared fails at scaring them.

Carmie the Zombie

Larry Taylor one of the best men you'll ever meet.

Carmen and her nephew Ethan

Me and Carmen with our pumpkins

A really awesome house!
I didn't wake up til about 4pm on halloween because of the shift I worked the night before.
When I got up we carved pumpkins. Every one made their own designs. After wasting a lot of time trying to decide I made a rooster. Afterwords, got ready to go trick or treating.

Carmen's mom, Carmen, Jared (Carmen's brother) and his family, and I all went out to Carmen's old neighborhood and went with them to houses.
Eventually Carmen had to go off to work, and I met up with my friend who I've known since middle school. Alex Tromanovich was the monopoly guy.
I got my costume the morning before from walmart. The 'tatterd witch costume'. I felt like the dress was really short of I added black tights and biker shorts. I was going to wear nicer shoes but my tennis shoes were way more comfortable...and because it was cold outside I wore a cape. From living in Idaho I've bcome very use to being more coverd up...and so I felt exposed...which of course I was a pretty conservative lady compaired to what I saw for the night.
The shirt I borrowed after we got back to Alex's house was longer than my witchy dress. I can't fully understand why all the girl costumes were so slutty.
We went to some party that consisted of seniors from mckinny high and mckinney north until about the class of 06.
As you may know how those things go... I didn't really feel I could take any good pictures that I would want to post online. Of course I don't drink either so I was just hanging back watching people act ... well not differently than they normally would. It was still neat to see everyone. Later on we stopped to get some taco bell and I stayed at Alex's with friends til Carmen got off work at 6am.
I went up to the petsmart that we both work at. I 'got' to show some people my costume.
My night was actually more eventful than this...but I guess that is all I feel like sharing.

I also recently visisted my nephew, my brother Zeniff, and his wife Tiffany to celebrate. It was my nephew Skyler's birthday.